Saturday, April 28, 2007
Today was Shawn's Birthday! Had a chalet and birthday celebration for both Shawn's & Yvonne's Birthdays! Yvonne's Bdae is on 30th April...So they celebrated together today (Save costs I believe). It was quite fun...but I was sick, so I didn't do much today. I was like staring at the floor and my mind was so far away(I don't know where). Even the teachers find it weird that I was like a puppet. 'Cause I wasn't smiling during the party. It's weird to see me not smiling. So...I was once again Super Emo today. Not until at around 8:30pm...we played WATER BOMB!!! It was extremely fun to throw the bombs around but it was super short!!! We've ran out of bombs in just 5 minutes. Mansfield was the one who got wet the most...and he didn't get to throw one. So, I gave him mine...and he threw it at Kathy. So, those who were super wet hugged all the other partial wet people. It was fun when we reached the chalet...the floor was extremely wet and we locked some into the toilet and played with water the whole night. But eventually...all things have to come to an end. At around 10pm...we stopped playing with the water and dried ourselves. Some changed their wet clothes. And after that...I bid farewell coz its almost 11pm when I left.
When I left the chalet...a mysterious caller sms me. Of course I had to ask "Who are you?" Then, to my surprise, it was Syahdiqin; my primary school classmate & crush. Hahkz. Then, we intended to chat on the phone but it was late and they(Syahdiqin & Adel) don't want to wake the others in the house. So, we all just chat through SMS. And then...It was Night.
11:41 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Friday, April 27, 2007
Was super emo today...I was depressed. Don't know why.
Aniway...Hakim and I were going to Friday Prayers. Then, Fifi tagged along with his friends. His friends actually went to MacDonald's to buy food & drinks when we were almost late for the prayers. They were such asses. By the time we reached there by bus...just reaching the gates, and everyone was already leaving the mosque. It was bad la 'cause we've missed the prayers. Stupid la the two boys. Due to that, I scolded them to buy food only after prayers...not before. Sigh. It was a failure.
11:06 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Thursday, April 26, 2007
When Mr Loo asked people to give out the Class Tests Papers to the class, I was shocked to find out that I didn't get my paper back. So I asked Mr Loo for it. He said "Wait, it's with me." So, I thought to myself, "Oh no! I must have done something wrong." Afterwards, he announced that the small stack of papers in his hand scored the highest marks amongst the class and he said "And the highest score is full marks...by Zulfikar." I WAS IN TOTAL SHOCK!!! IT WAS EXTREMELY SHOCKINGLY BEAUTIFUL AND AT THE SAME TIME HAPPY!!! Heehee. It was the first test that I actually scored full marks and I think this was the second time being first for a test. The first time was last year when we had our first Chemistry class test. Ouh ya...this test was EMaths on Transformations: Reflection, Rotation, Translation, Enlargement & Combination of Transformations. It was amazing. I know I shouldn't be boastful or too proud about it but I can't help it. However, it was rather sad to see my friends actually cry 'cause they didn't do very well. Don't want to name them but all I could say is that this is just a class test, not the O Level Exams. So don't worry too much. Ouh ya...this isn't the first paper I scored full marks...I scored full marks for Biology too on Malaria but that test was easy until about 16 people scored full marks...so nothing to brag about it.
6:16 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
In those of whom I call friends in the eyes
Are those who hates me in the heartThat were once claimed to beGold...I don't know but that's what I'm feeling right now. I feel that my friends are avoiding me and getting further away. I don't like it 'cause I have this phobia of being lonely. I'm getting depressed over it
10:44 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Today's EL Oral Exam was the BOMB!!! It was shockingly fantastic and beautiful! Except the part when I had to describe the picture. The whole topic about this oral examinations is about MUSIC!!! If you didn't notice it, my blog is all about MUSIC!!! So...guess what? It was fabulous to talk about music. Firstly, the passage was easy to read. The only difficult words were "enticingly" and "saxophone". But i know how to pronounce those two words. Some may pronounce "saxophone" wrongly. When I started to read the passage, I don't know why but I was speaking in an English accent, which was weird. But the teacher invigilating me was Mrs Aziz...so I guess it was okay. Also, having a conversation with Mrs Aziz was SUPERBLY FUN!!! She asked about my experience either as a musician or as an observant. I chose observant and told her about the NAFA concert I went about 2 months ago. It was fun talking about 4 percussionists playing 20 over percussion instruments and also about the British Trumpet solo. I was cheerfully smiling talking about it.
After Oral, went home and waited for my brother to come home...so that I could go to Century Square to claim my handphone. The camera function was spoiled...It's just 4 months old and it's already spoiled. WTH! Nvm...luckily got warranty. Then...waiting for to get it back was HELL!!! The queue was SUPER LONG!!! Waited for about 2 hours just for my turn. The shop had to remain open even after its operating hours. Hhakz. Head down to KFC and ate the Original Chicken...which kinda sucks 'cause it's salty. Always chose crispy but due to time constraint, I chose Original...and also to try it out for once.
11:51 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Today... My whole family on my mother's side, my uncles, aunties, cousins, niece & nephews. It was like a feast. They all came to see my grandfather who is ill. Even in the midst of all that, my cousin-in-law, who is 39 by the way, gave some advice to me. Asking bout my future and all. He even gave some quotes like, "If you got no problem...thats the problem",which is so true. It was rather busy to do all that work in the house like cleaning the dishes and all. I even heard my niece said "Eh...my friend say, "The light in the shadow" and then he shine his torchlight." I find that her friend is rather emo. Hahkz. The whole night after the feast was busy doing chores; sweeping the floor. And laid out sleeping mats on the floor for my four aunties who came to sleepover.
11:39 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Saturday, April 14, 2007
I think I'm not gonna write poetries 'cause all of them sucks. Somemore it's a waste of time to think of what to write in the poetry, and I've got no clue how to start this one.
Anyways...today, straight after our Biology Class, Elizabeth, aka. Lizzie, actually gave out chips & drinks to the whole class. She's the Australian girl by the way. Came to Singapore to visit her home country and was brought to school since yesterday; just for fun. She had to wear Phoebe's clothes yesterday; even the white shoes. Okay, back to the story...The whole class had a small party in the Biology Lab with chips being munched and crunched all the way. Mrs Diana said that since it's a biology lab, there are no cups provided. Only beakers. So, we all drank from the beakers, thus, we washed them twice before drinking the drinks. It was rather fun to have a party in the lab, when it is actually illegal to eat in the lab. All thanks to Mrs Diana. After that, we had our Physics class. It was fun to use the sun disks to find an image and make it look sharp and clear by adjusting the distance from it to the screen. Then...it was nothing much after the class. It was boring after that
11:24 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Thursday, April 12, 2007
His regrets made tears flow
I couldn't kept the feeling
When the words were spread even further
It was a river I made
Yet...later on
It was happy to know he's okayThis morning...Mr Benjamin Quek gave an poem to the school; it's more towards the Band actually. It's about falling down and standing up again during a race. He's referring to us to get up on our feets, forget the past and move on. But when he said about the Band getting the Copper Gold...(like I said to some people) I stood up in the parade square and walked towards the passageway with tears flowing and eyes red. I went there and squat behind the walls, crying. Surprisingly, Mansfield came to me to comfort. It was nice of him. Then, Mdm Norul also came. And lastly, Ms Ng came towards me and gave me her hand to say that it's okay. She also said about the judges were bunch of crap and all 'cause there was only one Gold out of all the 26 schools yesterday. About 3/4 of them were Copper Gold. So, it was a start to cheer me up. The judges were idiots though. Then, Ms Ng asked the whole band to assemble at the passageway. Kinda nice of the teachers to give us napkins to wipe our tears. They really are supporting us...But when Ms Ng say, "You guys remember when Mr Wong said "Do not fear for I am here", I don't think he's gonna say that again to Westwood today". It was sad to hear that but of course almost all the band members will go to SCH to support Westwood.
Next chapter: We all gathered in front of the foyer and went to SCH together. It was funny to see the look on people's faces to see one whole compartment of the train being occupied by us. But it was fun. Then, being at SCH, we had to lie to say we're from Westwood. But then, they found out that we're from Coral. hahkz. Only some of us got to get inside the Hall. And Fairul came to us and was shocked to see all of us there and he asked "Why you all here?" No one answered him. Nadia said "Shut up la, Hypocrite". Hahkz. When Mr Wong came out...he was surprised to see all of us there supporting Westwood. Then, we had some conversations with him. It was random of him to say "Zul's getting bald". I was so "Huh?" We also gave him the huge poster Then, when it was time for the results, we all went in to hear the announcements. Again, the judges made their stupid appearance upon hearing their names. But we, the Coral members, didnt even clapped for them. So...when the results were out, I stood up to clap for Westwood as they achieved Silver. When walking towards Mr Wong, I shook his hand and congratulate him. It was happy to know that he's okay now.
11:35 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
By surprise this shining light appeared
For which the Stars were sparkling
Bright like the Heavens
Waiting to be touched by the flesh of humans
None, however, fulfill that Dream
As a Dream like that is impossible
But Life is always like that
Without Stars
The sky will be too dark
We won't find guiding Beacons
And we will be forever lost
A poetry to cheer some of us up...To say that dreams are always impossible to reach, just like touching a star. Has anyone in this world ever lived to tell the tale about touching a star? Take dreams as Stars. Dreams can never be touched or fulfilled fully. 'Cause every time you feel as if you've fulfilled a dream, another one appears and dreams will never stop appearing in our lives. It can be difficult to understand but we all need goals or dreams in our lives...'cause if no dreams exist, our sky will be too dark...our life will be empty and nothing. We need some guidance to lead a purposeful life.
Don't worry if we didn't grab a Gold or maintain our Silver. 'Cause our next star to reach is Make Mr Wong Proud and make him gain his confidence back. I'm worried about that the most. Take this as a simple part of Life...Sometimes we win, other times we lose. If we lose to reach the previous Star...the Next Star, when reached, will be more satisfying & we will definitely WIN!!!
Today...It was an embarrasement to show my face in school. I was thinking twice whether to go or not. I mean who wouldn't. About 3/4 of the band members didn't come to school today. When I reached school...I overheard a girl saying "I thought the band was a silver band." To hear such phrase had just pierced my heart so deep that I almost cried. But after morning assembly...while I was walking to class, someone told me that Camy said that Mr Wong is blaming himself after what happened. Because of this, I cried walking back to class. I asked many people about tomorrow's performance of Westwood. Most of the band members are going to support them and Mr Wong. Good Luck!
11:30 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Trying to create the best scene
Making Hope for it
Adding Life to suspension
And Reality is invented
The run to reach the other end of the Rainbow
Was a failure
Yet...all we could find was a Pot of Copper Gold
Well...I told some people that I won't update this blog for this day. But I really had to...for memory sake. I know we all will never forget this day...but just in case I lost my memory or something. Touchwood. Sorry. Well, today was our SYF day. We were very excited before our performance actually; people caring bout their hair (the guys toilet was filled with all of the guys doing their hair in front of the mirror), their uniform, having the perfume fragrant smell & many more. However, i could see not just excited faces but also, nervous ones. Some people had this look of uneasiness and had uncomfortable faces. They don't seemed focus.
As said, before the performance, we did our warm-ups and the St. Patrick's boys (I call them boys instead of guys) was laughing at us for doing such things. But we didn't care about them. In the end, the moment we have all been waiting for, the moment we've prepared for so long, finally came. "One minute on stage bt One year to prepare". After the performance, some of us cried for not doing their best or played wrongly.
Finally, the moment of Truth...Firstly, the judges were actually very entertaining to us audience. When their names were being called out, they did their signature moves; like bowing and create funny faces and even grabbing the microphone from the emcee and said "Aloha" to us. We were very excited and surprised with their actions. However...some excitements don't last forever. When the emcee announced every band's medals...the atmosphere was getting intense. And when the emcee said "Band Number 43: Coral Secondary School"...we held each others' hands and prayed hard...he said the B- word. We were in total Shock! hearing that word. We had dropped one medal down. Tears then fell from every eyes except for some (counted four to be exact). We regretted not doing our best for Mr Wong. All of us were. I don't really understand why the seniors don't understand why we cried. I mean okay...we sounded bad...but getting a Copper Gold (a replacement for the B-word) is sad enough to trigger our tear glands to secrete tears. Why can't they understand that?
After that, Illys, Khairiah, Rasyidah, Wardah, Nushrah, Izzah, Nadia & I went to a nearby (it was actually far away) food court, near SCH. We ate our food with guilt; which we should not have when we eat. But we couldn't help it. To work so hard just for this day...and disappointing us like that...has totally brought us down. Furthermore, we worry about Mr Wong as we've let him down.
11:28 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Monday, April 09, 2007
A smile was given
Yet, the Devil's eyes were returned
A simple act but a freakish face
Hence, the world be not a better place
What judgements will be awarded?
For such hearts will be discarded
And the wind was blowing to the end of Time...
Yes...Something so dark and powerful is the act of despise. For such hatred towards another, brings a heart so hurt when their lips were smiling to such hateful people. I smiled to this person, yet, the person gave an angry, hateful look by turning away sharply using the eyes. Due to that, I began to think twice about the definition of 'friends'. Yes...The person was regarded as a friend. Sigh...Pity that a smile was never returned the way it should be. Such acts will never make the world a better place.
Anyway, today had a rehearsal. THE SECOND LAST REHEARSAL OF BAND!!! OMG! The next day is already SYF!!! Rehearsal today was just average. I almost cried hearing the band play and watching Mr Wong's actions to us. He was quite strict and was in a bad mood. Somemore, there were last minute reminders to us...in which I think that most of us will forget. One will be about when we're suppose to wait for Mr Wong's cue to put down our instruments. It's already a habit...Quite difficult to change that now. But...just hope many will remember. So, all I can really say is GOOD LUCK!!! hahkz. Even when he was in a bad mood, he did joke around here and there. He told us what he found out from today's morning SYF. There were many funny stories like being seasick watching one band 'cause they move too much with expressions...another about the conductor who would do any action possible to conduct the band;like bend down so low just to imitate the effect of the Piano and crescendo. He even say about the Sunrise...Most played that song but was pretty boring as they all thought that this was a technical and easy piece when it's actually difficult. 'Cause the song is very expressive but none was able to produce the expression. Hope our band will be very expressive for that song. Will score marks one as playing with expressions will beat all the other bands in Singapore that plays Sunrise. Must not make the judges find it boring and say "Not another one". Come on people!!! We coloured the scores already. Potray those colours into your music and you'll succeed.
11:30 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Papers all over the desk
Holidays are sometimes much hated
Inks were waiting to be used
Mind too disturbed
The fight needs to be prepared
Can't concentrate
There's nothing to talk about today. It's just sitting on the chair and doing homework. A pile of papers waiting to get ink spilling all over it. But I just can't concentrate. Too worried about SYF Competition this Tuesday. Hence, "
The fight needs to be prepared". I did my practice in the study room. Playing the Euphonium in a house is actually very disturbing to others. So, my mum actually played a music disc in the living room to overcome my playing. Sigh. Another reason is that I'm too tired. Didn't get enough sleep. Why is it that every single holidays that came, teachers have to give tonnes of homework to us? "
Holidays are sometimes much hated" I really do hate it when teachers do this.
11:41 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Saturday, April 07, 2007
Is it a sin to make a scene?
Or let tears flow across the rivers of feelings?
Guilt overruns this soul
Faith was running away
For such unbelievable Hope
Will vanish into thin air
I am sorry...
Yes. The poetry actually represents the truth about our playing. I actually do not have faith in us getting a Gold. But a part of me says that we can. It's just a matter of whether we will or will not. It all depends on the judges, If we're lucky, the judges will be in a good mood hearing our Sunrise and will mainly judge on expressions. But even our expressions aren't enough. I don't hear any hills or valleys on the song. Americans really love to judge on this point. So, try to imitate the feelings of the song. Be sad during the sad parts. Be joyful at the fun parts. Create hills and valleys; Expand the dynamics range. Articulations are too late to get improved. But hopefully the judges judge on the other points more. We need to beat Crescent Girls to reach our goal; the achievement of the Gold Award. I too want to feel the glory of obtaining a Gold Award for being in a performing arts group. If this is what the band really wants...Make it happen.
Went to White Sands to grab a late lunch at McDonald's and bought some groceries. Can't believe Nadia(T-bone) said that my outfit is boring and commented on my walking. It's just that I need money to buy new clothes. My wardrobe is like so skinny. Need to buy more. I went to many shops and wanted to buy those cool trends but money was a major problem.
After coming back home, I went to the void deck to listen to the Clarinetists practice. They practiced under my block and I can say that even when I go to the toilet in my house(on the 12th Floor by the way), I can hear Frederick clapping to the tempo and the melody by the clarinets of Sunrise and Alvamar. But it was fun listening to them play. Laughed with Jia Xuan about some band stuffs. Hahakz.
10:59 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
Friday, April 06, 2007
From now onwards, I'm going to write poetries before most of my posts to give a brief picture about my post. I don't know why but I just feel like doing it. And okay Celestine. I'm posting up a post here. Was too tired to write posts nowadays. Sorry for the late delays.
I walked through fire today
Beneath the heat
Above the flame
My feets are scorched I was a victim
Of the Sun
Better yet...
The Moon tonight was ablazed
This is quite a literal poetry. Went to the mosque today for the Friday Prayers. Being late was a terrible choice made. The late ones had to pray outside the mosque...ON THE ROAD!!! I was one of them. The black road was freaking hot man! Being barefooted just makes it worse. I had to jerk up abit so as not to absorb too much heat from the road. The road was SOOOO HOOOTTTT!!! Hence, the line '
my feets are scorched'. My feets were burned like Hell. I guess this was retribution. I was so jealous of the guy beside me as he brought his own praying carpet there. His feets were touching the soft, smooth, cooling fibres of the carpet while mine was on the black, heat-absorbing, stony road. ERGGHHHHH!!! And to make this post even worse...when I walked with my slippers to my father's car, guess what...the flaps were broken. The glue which sticks the flaps to the slippers was too hot and eventually looses its stickiness. ERGHHHH!!! I had to walk barefooted to the car. EMBARRASSING!!! Had to walk on the grass as it was cooling and the white paint arrows on the road as, from what we learn in Science-Physics, white reflects heat as it reflects light. Haiz...Worse, there was a construction site there. My brother had to say "Eh, got glass!" when I was walking on the grass. So I had to be extremely careful. Luckily, I didn't step onto any glass but my feets were burned by the heat. So, i wasn't really lucky.
The last line '
The Moon tonight was ablazed' is because the Moon really was orangish-yellow. It seems as if it was on fire. Very nice colour actually. But what's with the strong the heat today??? Actually, it's NOWADAYS!!! Recently, it's been scorching hot. Ouh ya...It's the Summer Season. No wonder. Totally forgot.
11:02 PM; noMUSIC; noLIFEY
